Well I've sorta fallen behind on the blogging...and the meditation...and even, I'm embarrassed to say, the eating got all fuxxed up today to. the only thing on track right now is the work outs. Well, the eating was only today. work has been absolutely nuts the last couple days. I've had a full on spammer attack on one of our servers and it wasnt until today that I figured out how to block the lowest forms of human existence. Here's the irony, they are fucking up the very system by which they feed off of. talk about biting the hand that feeds you. It's a waste of resources, its damaging to many people, both financially and in mere stress alone. And if they continue, they will eventually force all smaller server to shut down out of sheer annoyance and then the only thing that will be left are the large conglomerates who can not only afford to block them, but also afford to chase them. I'd like to start a group of hackers who are talented enough to chase this fuckers down and expose them. So Mentally I've been a little stressed the last 5 days or so.
Emotionally, I'm....hmmm, at the risk of sounding like a broken record, I'm really fucking happy. Even though stressed out a little with work shit, over all I still love what I do. and the atmosphere I do it in, is just great. Here's an example: today, I had 3 meetings, in my sweats and puffy socks, sitting out on the patio in an absolutely perfect day. then to wrap the day up I rode like 8.5 miles of the coolest trails right on the edge of the mountains, with coyotes howling at me and the fresh air and I look up at the mountains and think, "holy shit, I still can't believe I'm here. this is fucking phenomenal!" and I giggle to myself and keep on riding.
Physically - totally rockin. by the 6th week mark I will have the coolest 6 pack I've probably had in a few years, maybe the best since I was wrestling in high school. I wonder if I can have an 8 pack by week 8. hmm. time for a new addition to the dream board. the interesting thing is, its really not that much work at all to do this. the work outs are going even faster now that I have them down, I'm raising the weights finally, seeing results, but its not like I spend a lot of time on this. It really fits so smoothly with the lifestyle. at first it seems like an adjustment, only because its a change in routine. imagine how many people just stay in stupid shit, unhealthy lifestyles, unhappy living arrangements because of such a trivial thing as routine? Its astonishing really.
Spiritually Im on the right path still. and open. and receiving. even though I havent meditated "routinely" like I set out to, I have maintained a pretty constant awareness to that connection. I can only think that a more solid commitment to the meditation will reap more significant rewards.
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